"Think some people enjoy the sensation of losing control," he theorizes, although that is not the case with Lan Wangji. The few times he's chosen it has been out of a desperation to stop a train of thought or to increase emotional bravery.

"I do not partake often. Nearly not at all. But I have found when I cannot express myself, it forces me to tell truth. Helpful. But only if I have a little bit."